faux pas.... Rumi..... bhumisparsha mudra

The past few days have been chaotic, to put it mildly. Too much.... too confusing.... but thankfully leading me back to the simple yet profound poetry of Rumi, one of the two most read poets in the world, ever.... and my painting!

Sufism has always held me in awe with its utter simplicity of seeking love of the Higher Power in normal day-to-day things around us... in nature... in our simple actions... in the wild trance-like dance of the dervishes. But the best of all is the thought that each of Jelaluddin Rumi's poems leave the reader with... leave the meaning and connotation to the one who wants to search deep within or simply skim the lines. I remember being reminded of the poet during the dance of the whirling dervish on board the cruise in Egypt. Reminded me to seek that simplicity back in my life. I'll be happy to be led by the lines of the 13th century poet ........

What to put on the largest canvas I've ever worked on yet was a conundrum! It had to be a combination of the colours and symbolisms that have helped me through the most difficult times of my life... had to be about Buddha.... The sweetest thing in all this has been my ever-constant companion , while I sketched and now when I've begun the painting, little two month old Caesar. He watches me patiently as if he understood... for someone who is constantly nipping and chewing his way through the house, he has surprisingly not once set his teeth onto the canvas wihch is very much within his reach....! These are little blessings that keep me feeling happy.

I do not want to let others judgement affect me.... I want to hear the music in the colours of the sunlight........ I want to be free!

Love and God Bless,

I wonder why.............

I really do!

Why do some people spark off your madness and some others only brush past without affecting you in the least?

Why is it that there are some people you miss when you've had a misunderstanding... and others you did not?

How can you run away from what you know is bothering you if you didn't know what it was in the first place?

How does one say "I miss you" without sounding silly..........

Yes... these are the questions floating around in my head since last night and I have no answer to them as yet. Maybe I never will. As I have always believed earlier and my faith in it remains unchanged... maybe there is something I need to learn from this ...... maybe the one person I choose to reach out to will not walk away from my life.

This seems like ugly deja vu!